Saturday, May 17, 2014

Dream

Last night I had a crazy dream. John Anderson died this week. I think I'm dealing with with the pain and sadness in my dreams. Anyway, I dreamed that we were at the funeral and for some reason I could see to the other side of the veil. John was there surrounded by people, Chris, his mom, his dad others that I felt loved us very much and so was Alice. She was wearing a red and white striped shirt. And black pants. She come over to me and we just starred at each other. I couldn't speak or breath. I just stood there not moving starring at her. I was so happy to see her but I was afraid if I moved that she'd disappear again. Everyone on this side of the veil was getting ready to move to the chapel for the funeral, but I just stood there, frozen, not daring to move. People kept taking to me, I could hear their voices starting to get panicky and Alice smiled at me and waved. Tears began to streak down my face. I.knew they needed to go. John walked over to me and Alice. Mom and Pat were standing next to them on this side, unaware of their presence. John gestured to watch out for pat and then he put his arm around Alice and they waved goodbye.

I was so sad to see them go but the love that I could feel from the other side was pure, deep, comforting. I knew Alice loved us, that she d missed us very much. That she was always there watching over us.

Friday, April 4, 2014

She's gone

It's been ten years. Almost eleven. Really is been eleven. I'm starting to forget. It isn't fair. But we all know life isn't fair. She was one of the good ones. One of the great ones. She was my best friend and I took her for granted. I want her back. What I wouldn't give to let Isaac and Lydia and Ruthann get to grow up with her. It just isn't.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Pregnant Mommy

I am so sick. I hate that I feel like I have no one to talk to. It was a li more fun being pregnant with Sarah and Rachel. Then when I felt pukey or cranky or whatever they understood. Now I feel like everyone thinks my pregnancy is already boring and annoying.

Maybe it's just me. Sometimes I feel like I don't know who I am any more.

Who am I?

Saturday, June 23, 2012

I'm pregnant!!

I'm so excited to be pregnant. I can't wait to tell everyone but Brandon won't let me until after we buy our house. It's totally awesome though!

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Lowe's build and grow

We took Isaac and Lydia to the build and grow at Lowe's this week. They had so much fun!

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Totally back on!

Went to Costco. Bought healthy food. Excited to eat it! It's funny, I do like to eat healthy home cooked food. I'm just lazy. It's pathetic. My being lazy is a two edged sword. It's makes me eat fat food and it makes me too lazy to work out. I need motivation!

Monday, June 4, 2012

Horrible

Well I've fallen off the wagon. I need to get some motivation to get back on.

Let's get back to work!!